SIPEI'S

Realised,reality is cruel.

2011-06-28T16:23:00.000+08:00

Had so many things to tell you just like the past,
Wanted to ask you work hard,but guess i better not.
After i returned you your stuffs,Sis..Think we are not meeting anymore.
No matter what,i did treasured you.
Hope for the best,earn many many enough money for yourself,buy manymany pocky!!
Flipped through my diary,and now i know why you wrote those stuffs.
Yesssss,think i really'll miss the you.
Takecare of yourself,love you.

And precious,think you wont forgive me for something..But i do miss you,i really am waiting.
Do takecare of yourself,and come out work or study hard!Love you..

Felt so weird talking to you..Have so much stuffs stucked,but better not for my own sake i guess?

2011-04-25T17:25:00.000+08:00

Gonna get my ass up and prepare to go bugis!Guess we are all gonna be late anyway..Working tonight again..My clothes are in a mess.Seriously,cant stand it.And my cough is getting from bad to worst..So hungry again.Dont know why.And i think im going to work later on again.Haven even get my pay yet.Oh yea,and one more thing that i wont forget to do everyday,is to miss my dear darling weita:) Tatatatata,hahahah.MixiuMixiu!

2011-04-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

I seriously have no time to post,or should i say i spend most of my time sleeping and working?My routine's the same everyday.Now then i realised it.So long didnt post..Gawt,my unlucky eyelid's jumping here and there again.This few weeks,im just all the way working working and working non stop.And thats tiring,but thats the only way to earn.Yesterday was really a frustrating day,i dont lie for money..I mean i dont have a point to,its just a 35dollars thing..And wait till today,your not drunk then lets talk bout it.Your crazy..Totally..If you font beleve me,well dont bother asking then.Understand?I dont need your 35dollars anyway too.I can simply get it by earning with other ways rather than this.You dont appreciate people's hardwork then dont try to take charge of so many young workers than..Call all your other countries workers to give out then..Its just flyers,nothing much..I dont need your pay unless you want to give,get it?Dont wish to talk about it anymore anyway..Today,should i go work?Shots?Im so lazy):But i've like got no choice):Nevermind i think i shall off for today!So used to night working life,what to do today then?Have some feel for neverland.Quite long since i went there,and some feel for town?Thats super duper long since i last went..But i think if i do,my wallet will get a new hole again..Ok,shall stop here.Lazy to post somemore!:)Lastly,i love you weita:)

2011-04-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

Working later on again.Nol choice,cause i havent got my pay yet.Well,no choice but to work for money.And seriously,i really got no ways to get back all my clothes,im so angry >: with the bloody hell goverment people and the owner.Just cant i get back my own ones?And then give me sometime to get the authority to get for kelly?

2011-04-01T02:14:00.006+08:00

FUCK IT! I CANT GET MY CLOTHES BACK.

but something even worst happened.the reason behind why i cant get back is cause something actually happened to.....my such close friend..yet i can mistake her thinking she didnt want to return me my stuffs.the guilt is killing me

2011-03-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

NgLiTing,Stephanie.KoSipei.Saturdaymorning

Well,just havent been updating for quite awhile i guess?Im blogging now using Ngliting's mac book.And one good news i found my hair grew longer,but one very sad news cause i gotto run away from the police in order to maintain my grew hair .. But i dont mind as long as i've got my freedom and my hair,everything's fine for me .. Fuck it,nobody will understands how i feel totally right now .. Serious

2011-03-24T14:06:00.000+08:00

Like a long never post,cause im seriously super lazy to.Right now,im blasting song with Marilyn goh meiqi.She is just making me crazy.Police will come automatically even if i haven get arrested=.-' K,like aboredddddddd.I missed my real freedom like a damn.And I do think of you at times,but i got to remind myself there are more important and serious stuffs i should worry about.Gonna get my ass up soon from my chair.Living room is so stuffyyy,i cant like stand it.Hell..Im suffocating,cause im super stressed.Nobody will ever understand at all.

2011-02-28T16:51:00.001+08:00

I swear,when the day comes..Im gonna run as far as i can just not to be back to the third round mushroom head-.-

Peep,after one week plus a day of not posting.Im finally back.Gosh,think my body system's getting weaker..Just a little thing could make me vomit and go to toilet like shitzxzx!Well,now twitter is like more important to me than anything else except for my pipi player..Cause i use that to catch all my funny nice shows.Currently catching,K.O 3anguo.The next coming show after this,my planss are to finish..Love buffet by Aaronyan and Me and my brother by George hu..If only youtube's gonna at least finish uploading all the episodes faster..Thats only in my dream..Love buffet's only till episode 7 and Me and my brother's still not uploaded at all..Dream on man,KoSipei!Gosh,but i have more feel for Georgehu's shows...Causeeeeee..He's so damn cute.So cool,cant stand it.Though i think im a little bit crazy cause he's just a actor,but seriously..He is just so cute!Cant standddd it!HAHA.And that gohkailee better wake up when i call her.Or not she prepare he door get banged down!Was on phone with this idiot for more than 3 hours and i seriously cant believe it!She and her 28hours paranoia.Her Naggy oldgrandmother naggings continued after me telling her i didnt plan to go in again instead i plan to run faraway!And her nagging session start!Haha..Not sure if gonna go soprano tonight?If only i'm not tired.But guess not that easy,cause i've already slept 24/7!:)

2011-02-20T14:33:00.003+08:00

Words and promises are just simply rubbish that was thrown out from our mouth,It wont happen cause its already counted as thrown.Never we can pick it up again.

I seriously am very stress about my own stuffs already.Please,if friends and family is meant to be giving me more stress..I rather im fucking alone,at least im lonely but happier.I dont have to stress about all these shit.Seriously,i only got to stress how to survive alone and all in my mind will be just the way to survive myself..At least i dont have any unecessary stress.Ya what,im always the bad one then anything,continue..I really dont have the strength to care so much anymore,i have got enough stuffs on my mind enough to form another few volcanoes again..First volcano errupted,second's gonna be real soon..The other unknown few im not sure,cause it haven come out yet.Well,if all these companies to stop you from being alone,neglected and quiet..I rather from the start im one of the lonely ones in the lonely family..At least i only got to worry,how to survive alone,how to hold myself up..There's nothing else more i could think about.People say having a companion is always better than being alone.But somehow all these shit that happened during these years..I feel that,alone will be better than being with others..You've got to know how to see them properly,treat them in the way you should and do so many things,think of so many why,what and so on..Got to think of so many things just for it..Then i might as well stay alone with only one main concern in my mind though it would be super bored but at least its not that stress and difficult for me to handle with,im satisfied enough already,seriously..Fuckmylife!!!!!Fuck it fuck it fuck it fuck it!Enough,im already defeated.

2011-02-16T09:10:00.003+08:00

Someone save me from this miseries.People enjoying while their days are getting nearer to freedom.

Im supposed to be one of them,yet now when the day shines,im just afraid to hear that they actually called.And the results will be out,ok i know what is gonna be like and thats the reason why im worried. If i know there will be chance,i wouldnt be worrying.Yes,im now so called 'Enjoying' myself..Appear to be like when im not inside.Deep deep inside im sick worried,How i wish i could disappear and vanish into thin air for a period until everything is over?But i cant..I beared grudges against my sister who called,i beared grudges against my father mother for supporting her..Yes,i know afterall they are my own parents..But if you were me,when youre in my circumstances,you will know.How many times they lied and compared you since you were small,you kept to yourself all along until you cant tolerate and you turn to a wrong way.Now i may seem pushing all my blames to them,but im not.I know partly im in fault,of cause im..Cause im the one who chosed this path..But,they just didnt think of how i feel.I kept quiet,quiet and quiet..Just like the volcano..Keep and keep and keep until it errupts..I have already long ago on the verge of errupting since they did the first time..But i told myself its alright,i can tolerate more,since they are my family..And then after all the rains and thunders i camee..Im left with 6 months,now what?They did it again and wasted all my efforts..On studies,on reportings,on trying my best to stop everything,and on not losing my that lil tiny hope left for them..They ruined it with their own hands.Once i think back what exactly happened,hahahahahahaha..Its so...Cant be described..Just a word,PHOBIA.People entered their homes with the most relaxing mood and happy laughters..Me?I entered my home with a hopeless mood,behind my fake smiles and laughters is the horror..My own home to me is like a Haunted house..Worst than that..Any minute,i could quarrel with them for nothing..Any minute,the same thing gonna happen again for nothing..Any minute,they will lie to me just to get me back in..Seriously,i dont want to run,i dont want to go in either..So the only way,im still thinking.Its so silly,but i seriously cannot take it anymore.People who knows me well,should know that i have the courage to face problems when there's chance..And people who dont know,might just think that im silly and foolish,cause it aint worth for the exchange of not running and going in..I dont really care how people thinks anymore,now its me carrying all these shit on me..So its me to decide wheather to just leave it there or leave it there and disappear forever so the same history wont repeat again..Who knows even if i ran or went in,and then everything's over..Same history gonna happen at the same place..This haunted house,my so called ..Home.Its the sunrise again.I hope tsunami comes and sweep all the policedivisions away,Hurricane to swirl those reports,results and cases up,Lightning for shock them and forget every single thing bout me..Its impossible..Just like how my chances for the case this time round..Its,-1 % over a thousand.Its much more over the limit,i cant take it frankly speaking.Yes,some of them were right,if i know i couldnt complete the sentence well then just make the decision now before i regret wasting time down there and then go away from it again,its a waste of my precious time.Its a waste..I only know,i miss those school days with my schoolmates..I miss them so much,i miss my teachers,i miss my school):Its like now the safest place for me to go so i wont get into troubles..Just cause i get suspended,i got all these bullshits.Its a fucking waste for trying so hard catching up with my work..Its a waste for those efforts stopping my nonsense,Its a waste for have hopes on them..Its a waste of my this years running so hard towards my freedom even when im dehydrating anytime,i didnt stop..Its all a waste..I know it will be over one day,but to me it will just not.It might end but it will happen again.The only way to end everything is to do what im thinking..But..Its like abit..I dont know!This stress and all my others i kept down there,they are mixing together,they are forming that volcano in me,nope..They already formed one that has corrupted...But the only person who will be lying there dead,is me..Myself.If my heartbeat stop,i could feel nothing..Numb my feelings,blind me,make my mind empty and fill my ears with silence no matter how noisy it would be around me..Teleport me somewhere that i will be happy,at least just for a few years..Just for a few..I have no where,no one to tell all my things to.Now im immuned to that..But everyone still has their limit..And i stood there long enough for me to at least take my long fuck break already i guess??The reasons for continue standing went missing,and i couldnt find anyone of them anymore..And i guess,it wont be appearing..Even if it does,its gonna go missing again..Everywhere with internal injuries..Family,Friends,Money and myself..All these and alot more that i have to still worry about,wouldnt get into my head anymore..My system couldnt get all these in anymore..Really.....I think i will suffer more than dying with all these.Cant bring myself up anymore.

2011-02-13T06:25:00.001+08:00

Seriously,i know my mother really cares and love for me.But i really dont like the way she thinks naively,i know she just want me to stop everything but she used the wrong method on me,she just dont get it afterall.To her,that method is the best out of any.But to me its just making me worst,She 's afraid im having too much stress yet she put on more stress for me,She thinks that i could still continue my sentence without the glue life after everything when its not true,She thinks only by doing this i could stop it,but the fact is im totally not addicted.Its just for some stupid reasons,i told you guys before yet no one believes me.Maybe,yes you really care and love for me thats why you want me to go the right path but my dear mum,you made me get sick and tired,at the mean time scared of your love and so called care..Maybe im wrong to think that doing all these i can get what i want,yes i know im wrong but you cant stop me from telling you how i feel for your concern,Its really a wrong way for you to get me stop all these.But too bad its too late to tell you this,cause it no longer matters,no matter how much i express myself its too late to change any thing thats gonna happen for me..I totally gave up,thats all..From young till now i didnt even tell you guys how i exactly feel,and the reason is because you guys was too much in my concern too.But now,after so many things that happened,i realised maybe we wont be close anymore too?I could even be afraid of you guys' love,you guys' care.I seriously dont know,who i could pour out to.And i can only write parts of it here plus keep most of them inside me.Thats what i usually do anyway,so im used to it:)Supposed to go burberry but end up i didnt,cause it was already late when i reached home and i somehow left marilyn alone,but i didnt mean it seriously..You can get angry all you want,i can only say i didnt mean what you think..Im lazy to explain further too,i just want to get out of troubles for once,just for a whole year?):Every year im getting into troubles,dont know why.And its always at the start of the year.Goodness,just fucking unlucky.When can i get back my true,full freedom??):'A family suppose to make you feel happy and stressless,most relax when you see them and talk to them.But somehow mine is already different,i tried get along with your normally but i realised i seriously cant.I dont have that much time to think anymore too,When i see your, i get helpless.When i start chitchatting with your i feel stress.And when you guys question me i seriously dont know whats right to answer.I dont want to hate my sister for doing that,but i cant..I dont want to bear grudes again her,but i cant..She should knows that my hair and freedom is my first priority,and she should know how far i had gone,yet she can do it even when my mum and dad cant..Haha,what a 'LOVELY' sister i have is what i think of her from that day onwards.And i know even if everything's over i will still not forgive her..And of cause if i cant forgive nither will i forget..

2011-02-10T09:19:00.000+08:00

Sis,I may seems to be insane and happy all the time.But eventually im not,just that i've got no time to pour everything out as time is getting nearer.I could only choose to smile,laugh and be crazy all the times rather than keep thinking of where i will be at and how long my freedom will be paused,how fast my hair's gonna get back to mushroom style.Although all i could think of,everything's on my mind's my sentence,and when i will get my consequences i still cant show it out.Because there's no use and noone could help.Sometimes i really feel like ending everything,i dont wanna go in and i dont wanna run from it.The only choice is to end it.Still thinking what should i do,though im sorta fickleminded all the times,but this time round i really have to be..Cus the choice that i made gonna determine part of my future.Just hope that i wont get in Sgh,As i rather Cwp than Sgh.Maybe cause of the period of time i've gotto sit?But my feeling is,i will still get in Sgh for 2 years afterall,Dont know why just that feeling.Thats why im thinking wheather should i run and run till my probation's over this september then i go surrender..From 3 years ago till now,i didnt celebrate new year,christmas nor my own birthday happily with full freedom and my waist length hair before..Always without full freedom,living with the stress of timing afraid of the little small things we do,and my hair was never over shoulder length before since 3 years ago,once it reach shoulder something will happen and then it will go back to my mushroom head again and again.Not the first time but the third time though.Seriously,anyone teach me what to do,i seriously dont know what im gonna do for thisssssssssssss): Super stress,cant i enjoy once with stress of this kinda thing just for a day?Please goshhhhhh,My minds tired enough to just close its eyes even when its crossing the road..Gosh,veryvery tired.The thing i cant gave up most is my hair and freedom.I could take others,like even if im poor,im alone without any friends i could take it but please dont take away my hair and my freedom..I couldnt take it,not even a little bit.Might be meeting Delphia leong later..Haha,She's so cute being a clown early in the morning.Sis,If i really never run and i go in for long,please dont be so clumsy and silly or naive..Dont trust anybody,as in you could but dont trust totally..Trust only yourself totally,and not even one other than yourself fully.. Learn to takecare of yourself properly,and go with the right clique..Choose the right things to do,dont be like me,in and out for dont know how many years then everything will end,you will be tired physically and mentally,and till the day come you will be like me.Totally gave up in changing.Take good care of yourself,understand?Indenpendence is the best.Dont be too honest in everything,sometimes it brings disappointments..I will miss you if i really go in for long ok?Sorry if im irratating at times,but im just trying to make myself happy,and not pulling a sulky face and spoils everyone's mood.I love you, and i will never forget that day yishun,how we knew each other..You were sitting opposite me offering me your prawn crackers wearing pink fbt,black singlet and black cardigan,hair with golden extensions tying to the side(:Haha,Dont forget me alright.Though i know its almost impossible to,cause it aint a short period of time anymore.Learn to be strong,and i love you love you love you,Makmak,ManyMany

2011-02-04T14:39:00.000+08:00

Gosh,gonna go back to my real short fat mushroom head in two days time people!Hoho,dont know this time round will be how long already sialzxzx):Dont have the feel of going in so fast,feel like running away from the reality.All thanks to my bitch sister,fuck all thanks to her.If not i dont have to be stress about my hair and freedom,Fuck i took so long to grow my hair , now got to cut again.Wtf is this manzx.Irratate my life.Gonna meet Ivan , Huimin and maybe that ah kang kum ah hong!LOL

2011-02-03T11:07:00.001+08:00

FUCK MANZX.
Im left with 3 days and then will be back to that mushroom head.
WTF

2011-01-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE.
Whats with my sister , whats with my family.Why cant they stop making all these troubles for me.
I dont know what to do then i can get to be happy.So irratating,actually im already on the way to happiness.
Yet,all these fuck happen.Seriously just end my fucking life sia.Steadyyyyy.

2011-01-16T08:06:00.010+08:00

Met up with this two idiots yesterday at hougang before going down to bugis for Delphia's birthday.

Expected to be great,ended up not really expected.Was seperated into different groups due to the many different groups of friends that Delphia invited.Alright,wasnt that great cause the main point was to celebrate her birthday yet all along i was with Sherilyn,Ivan and Dane.LOL,But it was alright,only the same routine,Dane starts to disturb me and irratate my life once he sees me.Irratating muchhhhhhhhh.Lol,but he and his freaking jokes really made me dont have the angry feeling for his over disturbance.LOL,He and his freaking funny faces and noises.Around 6.45 Ivan,Sherilyn and Dane left so i followed Delphia and co. at the Tiantian Steamboat,Didnt pay but i ate.Hoho,free flow of food without paying,like a budget uh.LOL..Awhile later Delphia and one of the group left so me and StephanieNgng followed their group,awhile later we walked off for awhile and headed to the ladies and then when we came back to mos burger Delphia and co was already leaving and Delphia's stuffs' with me..So i had to carried everywhere):So me and Ngng head to Sengkang,Ivan's house straight and Once i reached there i didnt have the feel of drinking anymore due to Friday's nightmare,oh goshhhh seriously Friday's the first time of my life i drunk till cant even stand up..First time in my lifeeee steaddyyyyyyy.And some idiot just think that im stupid when im drunk but so sorry im not..Suck my blooddddddddd!Ok,anyway dont want to talk about it any more..Irratate my bloody life.LOL.After reaching Ivan's house,because there was no martell..Ngng bought the jim dont know want liquor which i dont even know whats that..Goodness,disgusting smell,and i swear the Fairprice malay bitch was fucking guailan,wanted ic and look at us with the doubtful pathetic face?Gosh,And i gave Ng my ic and show her,Hoho..Wanted to guailan but ended up lanlan!(:Stupid fucking bitch!!And then when we reached Ivan house i straight sleep all the way till 1 plus until Justin came and then follow by Dane..LOL,That idiot wangenfuyi veg head plus pig trotter leg,dont want say much uh,ownself know can already!Lol..Stupid idiot,once he came i have no peace..Lol..Ivan and Ngng told me i spoke in my dreams,and what i spoke was totally the top secret of mineee.Goodness hope Ivan wouldnt be that bad to go and tell that someoneeee..):No la,Actually i trust him!Haha.And they said i even wanted to strip in my sleep,Think that want really too over already cause i dont remember dreaming something link to clothes..LOL!Ok,and then once the Veg head cum Pig trotter leg came,i have fucking no peace.Kept disturbing me and Tagged team with Ivan and Justin..Goodness,So i think i better go back to sleep!Haha,Once the stupid veg head came..There was full of laughters dued to his funny actions and Justin's coopearating with him to be like fools!LOL,both of them can really teamed up can go for some funny competitions,No first prize also might have the chance of getting second prize!LOL.Ok,so i went back to sleep and When they was leaving to macs they woke me up,And that Justin asked me 'Pg girl,want eat not?We going macs.'But really too tired so i said no.And then that stupid veg head was leaving already he woke me up after me replying Justin and Ngng and said'Pg girl,i leaving liao.Byebye'Nbzxzx,cannot give me peace even when im sleeping,Both Dane and Justin!Goodnesssssssss~Fucking hell irratate my life is their happiness i think.Dots!And i woke up around 5 plus 6 when Dane already left.I thought i was dreaming when they was talking to me!Lmao,woke up and chitchat awhile before we smoke and left and head to cab home..Homesweet home,oh my gosh..I cant believe im still awake,and i think i have some weird feelings for someone i shouldnt,not the one i talked about in my sleep but the other want that nobody could guesss and i think if i would have said it out,every close ones will be damn fucking shocked okkkkkkk!But so sorry,I can only tell myself sorry,cause its impossible between me and that person plus i dont want to fall for someone i think i wouldnt want to lose.Haha,anyway hope that idiot Ivan wont go spread my uglyyyyyyyyyy side of my sleep talk,goodness if he saiddddd,i think world war already!Haha,But i trust that he wont lah(:Gosh still awake now,only abit of the tired but i cant sleep got to chiong my schoolwork and catch up with one week's work.Goodness,i think i will dieee manzx.And now currently my nose's still stucked,irratating much siah.Godsake.

2011-01-08T09:02:00.003+08:00

Hi peep,town for continuos two days after this currypuff came out!Haha,yesterday after town as usual.Dane,Ivan and me proceeded back to Ivan's house.That bloody dane,just cant stop his mouth and his disturbs..If only Santa claus could come back again and turn him into that day's quite and foolish Dane,how good it will be and i will be fucking happy!LOL,Badmouthing about that idiot again-.-LOL,no choice..He really can disturb nonstop want..Steady,stupid Veg head Kum Pig trotters leg!Went back to Ivan's house and I helped him to download some stuffs for Iphone into his laptop.And today im gonna teach him how to use and download his applications into his phone.(:Yay,he's signing M1 and i can nominate him!Hoho,So yea,we can call each other free for unlimited time!After awhile,Shanying came and we was talking bout Ivan's thick eyebrow and his face..Know what he looks like with our final outcome?Its LabiXiaoxin!Haha,We kept disturb him till he say he want his hair faster grow and his face to be slimmed!Lol,Actually no offence,i prefer him like that than being like last time,he's way too skinny for a guy last time,just cant stand it.At least now he looks better!Haha..Me and Shanying just laugh non stop at his face,and disturb him for quite a period of time.Haha,Cannot tahan sia.Then awhile later,we went watching shows that Shanying brought for Ivan..The first show was Morgan and the second was the Muoguitianshi show?After the morgan show,Justin came while ahpui left.Well,When we were watching the muoguitianshi show,i was already freaking tired squeezing on Ivan's small bed-.-And my leg was too long to lie horizontally.Just couldnt stand it plus its fucking squeezy.Justiin came and he became Dane's partner for disturbing me,Behtahan sia..Ohmygod.Lol,they bought mac before we start the second show.And Justin's fries was like plain potato without any seasoning-.-Damn fucking disgusting.Stupid Dane,whereever i sleep also got comment,Firstly ask me dont know dont face there face here,Then secondly ask me dont sit on the floor and lie my head on the bed because his legs are there and its too long for him to lie straight..Straight made me dont feel like sleeping anymore steady!LOL.Me and Shanying was fucking cold in Ivan's room i swear!After the second show,all of us went homee!Yay,HomesweetHome.And I was just fucking stupid to stop at bedok inter,Should have stopped at my house area.Fucking eerie when i was walking back..Haha,Think today im gonna help Ivan with his Iphone stuffs!Haha,Fucking funny the way he tried out with my phone!Lol,But im already used to his funny and silly actions plus expressions..After 1 year 7 months,finally i've got to talk cock with this idiot!Kinda happyyyyyy,2011's start was awesome!!!!

2011-01-07T08:37:00.000+08:00

Went town yesterday with Yvonne short to meet Ivan,Dane,Shanying,Kailee.Haha,Fucking happy to see Ivan Liew!He turned chubby and i find it cuter but he just thinks that he dont look nice with chubby cheeks!LOL.And yesterday i was already tired plus sick.But whenever i see what actions dane do i just cant stop laughing..Once i see his face,i know something's not going right,but his expressions and actions just can make my stomach fucking super cramp i swear!Haha.I swear yesterday was the first day i actually think Dane's quite cute,My wish is for him to stay like this everytime so that nobody will start calling me goldfish!-/- Just thick lips only,people will start calling you sausage,goldfish and all sorts of weird names.LOL.Awhile later Kenta,Koksiong,Yongcai and their Girlfriends came.Yvonne's kenta!LOL.Fucking not feeling very well due to some reasons which cannot be said here..Feeling some giddyness and my whole body was fucking nuaaaa i swear!Ivan left at 6.30 ++ with Shanying to his house.Fucking shag,only like spent 2-3 hours with him..That wasnt enough for me at all!But no choice he gotto reach home by 8.):Nevermind currypuff i will wait for you to be free alright,And then we will go crazy,do funny stupid silly stuffs together again alright?All of us are waiting,No worries(:After He left,Bagay was hungry and Xinlin already met us so we decided to walk from Cine to far east for some wanton noodles..Countless of time Me and Yvonne short walk here and there and everywhere of orchard sia.First,We alighted at cine and we went fareast to meet up with Ivan and co,Afterthat walk with Ivan and guys to Cine,And then from cine we went back to fareast.Ohgosh,My legs are so gonna fucking break.Dane and guys left town at 8 plus 9.While me and Yvonne shorty was waiting for Kenta to come,he was freaking long i swear.Yesterday was a real tiring day and seriously im frigging moodless in the night due to the fucking reason!Only me and Yvonne will know why.Stupid yvonne sengggg!Haha,She just could make me laugh when she start talking and nagging,repeating about the same few things!Lol,Freaking cannot stand her noisynesssss~Haha,and then three of us went back to Bedok.Around 11.30 i took bus home and ate my dinner before I have a short chat with Ivan the currypuff(:Supposed to meet Marilyn my dear sis today after so long of not seeing each other,but I want spend more time with my Currypuff so i decided maybe i might be meeting him today again for some Vivo trip.(:Just wherever also can,but no more town for me please!!I hate that place,I always go there being so energetic coming back with some freaking shag face and tired plus pain feet..So irratating,all we can do in town is to walk from one place to another,thats the routine of stuffs we do in orchard most of the time i guess?I can say i cant tolerate this!):'

2011-01-06T08:46:00.000+08:00

FINALLLYYYYYYYYYYY,YOUR OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT<3

Look at this,still dare say i forgot you?If you want i still got 2 other of our photos uhhhhh!Find our photos took me like dont know how many stupid minutes!Haha,Ivanliewzhengkang.Finally your out.Wonder how much you've changed.Anyway,happy belated bday!Fugging long sia,after so long like finally i heard your voice.Freaking happy only!!!HAHA.But you like still the same ley,Talk like tade link one,but nevermind Kosipei still like your nonsense cause it still makes me laugh like dont know what only!Haha,Steady dont know how happy sia!Haha.Say i never write letter give you,before you say so please check my diaries i always write in gracehaven almost all the three i got write about you and got a few are super long kkk!Haha,K right now you can view my blog cause i have already written something about you!Haha.You this idiot right now must be still sleeping,haha.You and your song crush uh~Now 2011 liao ley,still crush.Crush is 2008-2009's song leyyyy~Haha.Freaking hell cant wait for you to be free!Haha.You better freaking meet me soon hor,Si currypuff one!I thought you already forgotten me sia,Luckily you didnt or not you so gonna kenaalreadyHahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!Ehwhen want eat currypuffs together again,dont say i not good.Next time meet me treat you eat okkkk?And yesterday's over so from now you disturb me im so going to disturb you back!Haha,no give chance want kayy!Haha.Bloody fucking happpyyyy~~Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee,my motive for posting now its only to tell you i really miss you alot,and am really fucking happy to hear your voice and see you having more freedom now!Better dont be so stupid again and keep doing wrong things alright?Haha,got so many things happened after you went in,but dont know how to tell you cause really too many already..IvanLiew Cum Currypufffffff,Your vanilla me is always here waiting for your full freedom.Dont say i not good i let you learn some thai.Ruk ter mak mak = Love you many many.(: Ciaozxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzsxxzxzxzxzxzxzxzxzzxzx <3

2011-01-05T03:02:00.000+08:00

My bloody red eyes,infected another side too.Gosh fucking in pain now..Should have went doctor earlier.Just awake from my 2 hours sleep,And its by hunger so of cause now imma full becus the moment i wake up i ate non stop till my intestines' gonna burst.(:Somehow,im fucking angry and disappointed with the ppl around me.Fucking hell super disappointed.Dont treat one too nice,they will only take it for granted i guess.So i decided i will only treat those who will appreciate what i've done for them nicely.Whatever i do is all shit and whatever others do are always soooooooooooooo perfect.Some close wants can be so fucking contradicting and some stupid wants will fucking believe them.And some make use of your kindness towards them to get something they want.Gosh,perhaps we must learn not to be that innocent..Whats the point of saying and promising one thing when they cant even do.Yes,i can fucking hell do the same thing too because thats what you guys are forcing me to do.Im a humanbeing,not a wolf nor any animals with tail..So dont fucking try to find some tail behind me to step on..Try finding to step,and i will do the same thing,same bad treatments with different actions because there's so much more other actions we can do to return them back.Im not the same old Sipei anymore,Will only treasure those who i know they will appreciate me,accept me for who im and really from their bottom of their heart they care and not treating me nicely for some motives.Well,my eyes are in pain,with loads of pus.Fugging disgusting,decided tomorrow i shall go consult a doctor at the polyclinic nearby,Gosh lessons starts tomorrow and Just nice my eyes got worst yesterday.Dont want to miss lessons but i've got to save my eyes first before i go blind and cant even look at books anymore!Yesterday morning went school and from morning 8am-1pm there's all kinda funny things happening in school.Well,some freaking malay monkeys wanna act like they are fugging minas when this year is actually 2011 already luh.Just fugging no manners.Kicked people chair when people was sleeping,not one sorry or apology but still can fugging play staring game with me?Haha,You know actually i love this kind of games?I can tolerate starings because im borned to be looked by people unlike you small mina monkey(:Make sure you wanna start the game,you will play with me till the end alright?After school came home for a nap and then accompany Del with Tzehui to sign discharge form.Feeling not very good,dont know isit because of those diet pills and drinks,but super weird because i did eat what.K,nevermind anyway im feeling better.Physically,but mentally...I actually realised something about some close ones.Isit my paranoia or isiit true,I dont know.But im gonna take precautions before me getting hurt myself due to my stupidness..Gosh,Stomach fucking bloated till i cant get back to sleep.Why is this world so weird?Too hungry cannot sleep,Too full cannot sleep,Too nice will be taken advantage.Seems like finding something right and perfect we can to do its fugging difficult,regardless to ourselves or friends.Just let things happen by itself?Seriously,just dont know.Now i dont wanna fucking care about promises anymore.Because now i know most of it are really meant to be broken and its not true at all.This is what i called 'Contradicting'.

2011-01-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

See you girls in school,Adelinetyl And Serenetyl..im goonnna passs some red eyes to you guys!Haha,puff before we go in to school tmroow yea.Fyi,Please dont be late!So excited to see some bitches in classssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!Whats with my contagious red eye!?):Too full to sleep but i've gotto because tmr's the first day of school for the year.So not in a study and schooling mood.Frigging hell angry,just got false hopes.Thinking tomorrow there will be some fun for myself turning up nothing.Twitting nonstop,gosh.If you asked me if twitter or facebook is better i find twitter comparing to facebook it will be more fun.Maybe facebooks' already like a bored already?!Haha,whats up next?!Goodness,my red eyes keep tearing.Ugly,Pain and red?!So gonna spread to those bitches in my class this year.Haha,2011 already.Thinking of a way to make people suffer inside out?!Haha,i can start throwing the thoughts away.No time for that fucking useless freak.Gonna study hard and proof to that idiot im not from rainbow and he is the one from metta school & mindsville.See this?Goodness,What a great sweet couple.Javin and Jacinta please last long.Warrior on internet is useless,like all the comments i posted,Marvelous.Sucha fun great game.All i can do is just to twit here and there whenever imma at home and imma bored.Me still catching my muo nu 18.Fugging no storyline but frigging funny!LOL

2011-01-03T00:05:00.000+08:00

2nd of January,schs gonna reopen in one day's time.
Form for playing with some bitches~Tadalalala,its gonna be the best yr in my sec life i guess?
Most of the fun manzx! YAY!Just realised,i can cry till imma hungry.
Forgive and forget?Forgive but never forget?
Just dont feel like thinking anymore.Love myself is what my sister told me.
I just realised imma already 17 yrs old.Yet imma still stucked at my 16 yrs old life and form.
Gosh,time past like a fast uh.Cant wait to go school and play with some bitches.
Too bad,the bitch of the bitch just not in my class.Still quite fun though~Lmao.Gotta get some energy to play with that biatch.Somebody tell me whats MMC?~LOL,cmi ley like just dont know whats that meaning.
Anyway,i realised i could really stay awake for 48 hours!And even more than that,aft sch reopen just can forget bout my night life~Not that ready yet though,but seriously im totally ready for some 'Happiness Kum Funessssssss' in Sch,Ok be more specific..In Class!Bitch,here i come!
Somebody like follow me on twitterrrrrrrrrrrrr?!Me need more followers,Kao jai kao jai??

2011-01-01T07:54:00.000+08:00

Too many pictures to upload,so decided to jus upload some.Lazy to upload that many pictures.Well,expected my count down for new year will be a great one without troubles yet some people jus cannot make it.Jus make people hot plus make himself like a fool only.Before gg soprano,was at babyboy ashley's 3yr old bday celebration.And then drank nonstop since i reached bugis,running around between soprano and fushion drinking non stop.Well soprano jus alot of people and mostly just know ones.Running around different tables drinking like hell.And than problems start everywhere!Though there's problems,afterall my count down was still ok though.Me jus got caught by brothers for doing wrong things,and now imma really gonna stop wont disappoint them anymore.Hopefully your wont be that harsh too yeah!Took photos,and my whole face and body was jus bloody figging reddddd!Like a bored,schools gonna reopen and me jus dont have that urge to go sch.No more night life,no more enjoyments,and 4th january tuesday,Sch life's gonna be back,morning life,afternoon life and night life's gonna be gone till september):'

Just dont feel like ending holidays so fast,well me wanna trim my hair and let it grow fasterrrrrrrrr!My new year wish?Alot,jus too many for me to state it outtttttttt!Hopefully my sec 3 life's gonna be alright and fun?September faster come,and me gonna be freeeeeeeeee!Faster faster,my 2 year's of no freedom life's gonna end in 8 months time!Gogogogo!gogogogo!(:Couldnt sleep still so gonna get my shower and start watching my muo nu 18 hao.Super duper funny showwwwww!Tadalalala,my new year wish firstly is everybdy to be happy and put everything behind including myself!(:

2010-12-25T11:44:00.000+08:00

Hi here's my update for yesterdayyyy!

Just realised blogger's uploader is faster,but its not that easy to arrange the pics anymore.

Merry merry christmas everyone!Another year's gonna pass by us.And i hope this coming year will be a better one than the one thats gonna pass us by.Well so many things can happen withing a year,a month,a day or even within a min or a second.Each second passing us by,we should really treasure.We may not know whats gonna happen to us next..Well Had a super outta my expectation dayyyyyy~Was expected to stay home,but ended up didnt.Was a last min before Yvonne seng called me and drag me outta my warmmy cage.Well,Soprano and saw like 2 groups of friends excluded the group that i was supposed to went with earlier.One was pui and bagey's group,the other was oh my long time no seeeeeeeeeeeeee brothers!Yongcai,Stephen,Koksiong!Oh gosh i missssssss all of them so much,and their nonsense and those disturbs i always get from them,and even those scoldings!Its been a long time since we get together and slack around or spend time together,was quite happy that koksiong actually took the initiative to ask if after soprano wanna go hg plaza play pool with them..But sorry bro,i did promise my friend to go down with her to v4,plus theres' a birthday girl there!Hahaaaaaaaaa,And all the three of you asked the same question,did i stop all my nonsense already?And i know your are super glad and shocked to hear that i actually did it after so many years!I could still remember getting scolded and nagged by all of you for my nonsense a few years back,till your eventually gave up.But look,now i really had changed and i hope its not too late yeah.I miss all of you so damn fugging much,those nonsense and laughters!Even those unhappy memories..(:Hope we will get the chance to spend time together again.All of your changed,and its to the better side,cause you guys really grew up!!And to Yongcai :Dont be sad!(:Thats all i can tell you!For i dont really know how to console people!Hahahaaaaa!Well,after biding goodbye to soprano and my bros,went finding Yvonne's daddy and co. wished laksek a happy happy birthday(:Marilyn and his boyf and co. was there too!Delphia was so cute,keep saying sorry to me for passing me some of her red contagious eye!Haha,but its okay sis!Aftermath,went to kopitiam for awhile,and then deldel went home while me went to busstop,well i thought the bus will come like earlier,but it dint so i took bus and change at bedok reservoir so like a finally after a long trip,i've reached home like safely?!And then a big thank you to Stephen for accompanying me message all the way when i was waiting for bus,and at the ulu bustop where i dropped to change to another bus(:Reached home,washed up and use the com for awhile,and then..went to take a short one hour sleep when i really cant tolerate anymore.Now im still watching my 死神少女!Well,the episodes are getting more and more boring as the story goes on and on..At least the death girl should do something new i guess?Until now only one person lived?!LOL!Like a funny ley!But sadly that person is not my Wangziiii!Arggggghhhh,like a angry only!Well,not sure where am i going later though!K,shall stop here,Buhhhhbyeeeeee~Ciaozzzzzzzxzxzx~

2010-12-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to jooseng meet my Deldel leong,and then met shirley.
She is supposed to go for some programme in A&G but in the end she was lazy so she decided to accompany the both of us all the way(:
And then after sometime,went to kopitiam with the both of them and sit down with del's daddy while the both of them was having their dinner.Her father damn funny,like a cute only!Got character,i like!Haha
After eating,met rico,saybeng and the other shirley's friend for awhile and then off to 7eleven's voideck to wait for clarice.
Went home after that.
Watching 死神少女 ~ Gosh my wangzi just too early left the show,left with yalun to cope with the Death girl.She's pretty though(:
And then later will be out to Aljunied accompany Del see her sore eyes,hopefully she will recover soon.

Never gonna trust anyone words and advice for my own life,im gonna listen to myself and make choices of my own..
Mummy's gonna buy a new portable charger for me later(:

2010-12-21T19:13:00.000+08:00

Powerhouse yesterday night,20th december.
Not bad,out of my expectation its actually quite fun though its tiring because i danced through out!
Just went outside once,and then back in continue shaking my body off.
Well something unexpected happened,and only after that then i know..My mood turns out unexpected by sis.
Cant be explained too.Shall stop talking about it.And then till now i haven even get my sleep.
Goshhh,maybe dued to the things that im thinking.Dont wish to say much,if only i could rest my mind,then only i will be able to get to sleep.So just wait till my minds' really tired and cant tolerate anymore then i shall turn to my lovely bed cause i know its almost impossible for me to get those horrible thoughts outta my mind.
Always worrying about the same three stuffs..Dont know when then can end..

HORRIBLE~

2010-12-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

Just went simpang in the evening,what ever i wish will come true?Looking for a spouse,soon a good want will come?Will be happy if im.....Hmm that word i dont know whats that but must be somethng about my attitude.Anyway happy with what i get,it says good things will come and think everything will end bah.
Hopefully so,i dont wanna think about all that anymore,i want to move on with my life.
Watching tao hua siao mei again.Funny luh chen yu yi!
Haha,eating while thinking,watching and twitting.Now blogging(:
Well,my life's now only eat and sleep.School's reopening,and all i can think is study study plus study.
Goodness,dont feel like going back to school life,and hopefully september faster come,everything will be over and i will get back to my working life.Goodness,Wake me up when september endsssss~

Only can say,i wont trust people's words that easy anymore.Opps,think i seriously got to 50kg already.
Kept eating nonstop and then back to sleep,no work outs at all.Oh gosh,please somebody control my mouth!Needa lose some weight manzx!HAHA

2010-12-12T08:47:00.001+08:00

Tired night,wasted my money on thanksgiving 0,0
why not thanksgiving celebrate on novemeber?Then maybe i wouldnbt be that stupid to believe in hi words,not i heard not only one person saying so,Its another.Plus i heard your past now i realise im that stupid to fucking believe you!

2010-12-10T12:55:00.000+08:00

Seriously,its not worth it everybody saying.
Maybe its really my karma for not treasuring somebody in the past and now even if giving in its uselss,
I believe what goes around,comes around.Or maybe cause we just dint understand each other that well before we decided to be together,or maybe really its my oversensitivesness or maybe im just a toy to you.Whatever it is,you have already past by me.Crying over a spilled milk its not worth it.I should have to listen to what you guys say bout him,and now i might not be like this.Take its as a lesson,Kosipei.

2010-12-09T09:57:00.001+08:00

Seriously,nothing in the end.

2010-12-05T01:29:00.000+08:00

Well,Loves like a game of fate.You may never long how long it could last but do treasure what your having now.It might disappear anytime.So yeah,im treasuring who i have now as much as i could,changing as much as possible for him(:Its been 4 days since i last met baby,i miss him):His reply is as usual that slow but its ok cause as long as nothing happens to him and he did reply im already satisfied enough(:He should be sleeping right now,and im kinda angry with facebook..Gotto redo the relationship thingy again.Always the same thing happening.Plus dont know whats wrong with my itunes account,needa verify it before i could download my iphone application,what the hack.And the stupid hsa is making me super pissed,whats wrong with you guys?I also committed the third time same as my other friends,and why only me who've to wait for the second letter for my punishment ley-.-People got fined straight away,and you guys just wanna make me heart itchy only-.-Dots plus dots.Whatever.Anyway,talked about today..Went meeting Della and co.After math,went Sengkang cc to fetch Stephanie but ended up she already went off and we sat there like idiots.Since she went off already,Della and co went seperate ways while Me,Steffi and Delphia went Tpy central's pasamalam.Delphia and me bought the same bag,and somehow careless her left it somewhere and people took it!So she went buying another want,Silly sister!The three of us finally get to take photos together again and also we somehow did some heart-to-heart talk.People,i really dint change.Just that we contact each other lesser,well dont care how plastic people could be,thats reality..Thats what i told you guys before,so bare with it,it would not be forever..We got to learn how to be independent and deal with all this kinda nonsense right?Yes,people could be fake but if you know that your not and think in a positive way..You may feel much better alright?!(:Hoho,Baby fell asleep already,nights baby!Gonna miss you so much,rememeber got to save money k!Nights peep,imma sleeping soon too~

2010-12-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

Back from baby's place 2 hours ago.Hoho,Just finish eating and bathing.Currently on Facebook and Twitter while watching my korean drama on Pipi.And yes,Im missing somebody now too.The only person first came on my mind is........Lmao,dont have to mention the name and that person should know that its a must for him to know its him!(: Yes,its my dearest GarretTan!Haha,Baby your starting work tomorrow and must be persistance ok.Your spendrift,so you got to learn how to earn money for yourself by your own hard works yeah?Anything i will be here 24/7 for you!Today's the 7th day of me and you,hopefully we could go longer and so on yeahs?Baby,imissyou and love you trucksloads.Though we just parted but i still missed you like hell.Haha.Hsa's first letter came and its written down there i commited the 3rd offence and now imma waiting for the second letter to come.Hopefully its only gonna be fine and counselling sessions at Polyclinic but not Court-.- By right it should be fine for the third time anyway unless The hsa people wants to try to be funny with me.Then seriously they should do some soul searching for being unfair(:

Waiting for mummy to come home,think she's gonna scold me upside down for cooking all her veg finish!But i've got no choice cause i've gained 4kg,and now im 48kg-.- 2 more kg and i think i can commit sucide!Laugh,Gonna start with my diet plan again till i go back to my 44kg and i will promise myself not to crave for anymore snacks and stop my mouth unless its my breakfast,lunch or dinner.(:Dieting needs huge persistence and determination,but looking at my side think its difficult but not impossible for me to slim down.Just some work outs in the morning or evening may help too i guess?(:Facebook nowadays have many weird people,as in unknowns?Asking for intro and msn-.-Dots..Plus some tag photos on my profile which i dint ask for.Just abit irratating,and they can just continue doing so~TaDaLaLaLa(:Okay,tomorrow morning 11am gotto go mcys for reporting and then Saturday morning got to go for some programme which i dont feel like.Might be taking mc i guess?Seriously not in a mood for any boring programmes.Thought that sana will be my last programme for my probation,yet popping out another stupid retarded programme.No choice but the only comment for Mcys is,actually their programmes are boring.-.-Reporting is even much more better than all those.Like seriously speaking,can mcys stop their stupid programmes for awhile?Plus its my holidays,im suppose to enjoy for the last one month and then back to school life you know-.-Just spoil mood only luh~

Oppsy,baby dont think im naggy but seriously im starting to miss you again

2010-11-30T22:18:00.001+08:00

My horoscope says,love comes fast and pass by fast too.
Hope it aint true.

2010-11-29T14:07:00.000+08:00
Today is the 29th of November. (:

YAY,Im super ultra happy that i managed to see baby yesterday even its not a very pleasant day due to some stranger with a bloody weird character and big mouth!But no worries,no matter what i dont give a damn to what you think or even say to others about me.Cause i know i did nothing wrong,get it?!And i dont give a damn shit about you because your totally out of my bounds.Im agitated because of your actions and the suspicious way you looking at my baby!
And im irratated not because of you,its because i dont want me and my Baby to quarrel just cause of you,so im clever enough not to care about what you said bout me.Well,i know i trust my baby because he told me that he trust me,so i trust that he wouldnt even hear what you say cause your just a stranger to us thanks alot!(: At first i really think your quite pitiful,but after the many actions you did makes me feel super disgusted,you bloody hell! Or maybe you just cant control yourself,you know what im talking aout uh!And then finally we went off,baby sent me home and his sweet kiss makes me melt totally(:
Oh no,guess what? We only parted for like 2 hours plus,and i miss you so much already!Know why its so much?Cause once your out of my sight,the percentage of missing you is from 0 and then to 10%,and then each second past it grows double,triple,and so on..I love you so much baby,though maybe we really will part cause of that stupid mistake we made,but i hope we can go through the obstacles together,hand in hand and till the end(:
Like i've said,i would not leave you until you decide to let me go for more happiness,because if that makes you happy,this will be the only one reason i will let you off even if i love you so much.Cause,as long as your happy,im satisfied enough and you being happy will give me the courage(: I dont want you in person,i want you in heart!Meaning..I want to win your heart,its mentally winning you,and not just physically!<3

I love you,Garret tan! You will always be my first priority just a step below my family members as long as we are still together.Willing to do anything,just for you(:
I just cant help sending long messages to your phone even if you will think that im too naggy repeating the same things.But each word that i have sent represents how much i really do love you.Your occupying my heart,not just a part but the whole of it and if one heart could be bigger,you will just be occupying more.After sucha long time,i finally found one that i really could love and get back my courage for,though i dont know how long this happiness will stay..All i could do is treasure my time with you,remembering every single words you've said and the things we do together.Well,maybe im just too crazy over you and it really turns me selfish and not caring more other than you.Opps,you horrible baby made me fall so deeply in love.(: I cant imagine me having so much to say with the same topic,the same person.Im super glad to have you by my side,If only i can see you now,i will be even more happier.Tralala,Garret tan uh!Chan Ruk ter mak mak,Kid terng mak mak mak mak mak!Oppssy,you made the best out of me.1 year 10 months past after a broken relationship,and finally i found back the courage to love someone so much again,and its you who gave me this courage to step out and fight anything for someone i love(:

2010-11-01T02:35:00.000+08:00
Halloweeen @ Soprano. 30th Sep.

Well,due to the too many photos that i have to upload and the tortise speed of blogger picture uploader,i decided to just upload pics that i took on Saturday.Went out in the afternoon that day,And then slacked with Steffi,Del,Shunyee & Steffi's mum.And then went bradell mrt to meet with my dearest biatch,AdelineTyl.Walked all the way to tpy inter with Deldel,she boarded 155 and me and biatch took cab to Jeslyn's house.Around 12 plus Ade and me bused to tamp and both of us took cab again,but she alighted somewhere at holytrinity while i cabbed to GeylangLor18 to meet up with Marilyn,Yvonne and co.And then cabbed to soprano.There was a halloween night out there.Somehow,i was not feeling very well cause i didnt really have enough sleep.Didnt eat before i drink,and the consequence is..VOMITVOMITVOMITVOMIT AND VOMIT! Count the times i wrote the word vomit,it would be the times i have vomitted.And then guess what?Reached home in the morning,Slept till early morning too D:'
For two days,My sleeping hours add up only to 7.
29th,2 hours. 30th,5 hours!Cool,i think my old life is comming back.Smoking much more than the time when i was at gh,Sleeping lesser,And awake in the night more often.But im seriously leading a more happy life now than before.Maybe not cause i've changed,but because i can see things more clearly?And can make decisions and choices in a better way,My thoughts also did became more clear,I know what im doing now unlike the me before.I love it :D
Tired,so i would be sleeping soon after my milo cupppp! :D
Nights peeeeep.

Webcammmyyyyyyyzx!

2010-10-21T15:16:00.000+08:00

Well,currently rotting at home watching Bridge to terabithia!
Just came back from reporting,and super boreddddd now!
Seriously,dont know which subject should i choose!
POA or ART? Chem Or Bio?!
Anyway,was quite satified with my results though its not very good.
At least i can get to promote like after so many years of retainingggggg!Happy to the max!

DAI YIN MAIIIII,DAI YIN MAIIII?

2010-10-20T21:57:00.000+08:00
Well,finally have photos with this two biatch after going out with them for so many times! :D
Was at east coast enjoying the sea breeze that day.Listening to songs,taking photos.
Since a long time i updated my blog,so decided to make it alive again :D

Today after school,went 'Salad's house,playing the psp dance thingy with Jeslyn.
And stupid 'Salad' and Adeline was there eating their cashew nuts enjoying the fan while me and jeslyn was sweating!Lmao.But afterall,i did enjoyed playing the dance thingy though only one map could work and me and Jeslyn got to keep take turns to dance.
And she did one very stupid thing,sitting in the middle of the map and play using her stupid short hands!Super the funny,and when she uses her small feet,She looked damn freaking funny like two stick dancing away,poking here and there.Should see the way she dance!Totally was the joke of today!And 'Salad' filled with all here nonsense,Adeline keep complaining hot!
Promoting day is coming,and seriously i hope to get into the same class with all this cute,funny and lovely girls! D: But sadly,the percentage is like,only 35%.Cause,my results compared to theirs is like heaven and earth!

Sort of regretted for not treasuring that past which used to be sweet.Though i dont know if its serious at your side,but it is at mine that im sure.Just that somethings which have to happen,it will and if its gotta end it will have to.

2010-09-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

Im feeling better as time past.
Sometimes,love will be like paradise.
But when it comes to times that are bad,its like hell.
And it hurts you like shit.
Then when it comes to the sweet times,
You will be jumping in your heart.
I dont understand why,but i know its something everybody would have want to try.

I dont know should i,because im afraid.
Its kinda phobiaaaaa for me.

Just ate my dinner,sesame cookies and sesame bread:D

2010-09-14T21:50:00.000+08:00
MISERIES,LOST OF FAITH.

Went to sign discharge form today,and i just realised everything past so fast.
But with many things happening.
Today,something happened.
And it totally thought me to only trust and love myself.
For,not even a single soul in the world is trustable and,
Will give me a good return for my love.
Trusting and loving one,only brings me disappointments and tears.
Why do people always love to spoil my trust that much?
Why do people always love to hurt the other?
Why cant they just do something better than that?
The world is sucha fuck!

I swear,i would never ever let myself to trust and love anyone anymore :D

2010-09-09T18:04:00.000+08:00

The more we love,the more hurt we get.
The more we treat ourself like a fool.

TERNGHUIMIN,I dont meant what you think.
Really,you know me well.
you know i dont do these.
I really dont wanna lose another friend like you.
Im sorry.

2010-09-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

I guess,its really time to let go.Dont wanna be one that you can play with when you like.
BORED TO DEATHHHHHH!Home sweet home,not feeling well.
Feel like puking D:

Hi Leeyunxuannnn!
Lol,this is your retarded pictures!
Today spent my whole day with this idiot,Ashley and desmend i think?Damn long no see him,and he changed quite alot.
Just that all his nonsense didnt.LOL
As noisy as how he was 3 years ago!
LOL

2010-09-07T08:01:00.000+08:00
Will never ever give anybody a chance to make me like a fool anymore.

Well,i was still so silly thinking that putting back my trust to love is a step forward.
When its impossible,im still thinking there will be miracles.
For nothing,for no returns im putting in everything.
From today onwards,im gonna tell myself not to.
For it only will bring me pain.
Thanks,and shit you.
Remember this.Never hurt a girl like that,dont do it on purpose.
Your just another wicked passerby trying to bring me down in my life.
And yeah,you succeeded,but making me learn not to trust anybody like you anymore.
And i will not ever,let myself trying so hard to step over my phobia again cause its deeper now.

Yes,its expected.I've regretted.

2010-09-05T22:37:00.000+08:00
Yesterday,went meeting stephaniengliting.
And she was lost,waited for her like so long in the end she went home D:

Today,went kbox at marina.
Yanting,Tabitha,Francita,Nicholas.
Was not in a very good mood,
Just cause of ..I dont know!!

Today,dont know why out of a sudden i was totally lost.
My feelings are going up,going down.
I dont know what to do,for im lost.
I worked so hard to pull myself up,yet in the end i still lost.
Really regretted for not thinking properly.

Feeling shits now.
The worst is forcing myself not to when i already did but i just have no choice.

2010-09-03T22:05:00.001+08:00
AWESOME
finally im out for extended till 14 september :D
Think back of the days,its horrible yet full of experiences that taught me so many things.
It taught me all those observant which i didnt had last time.
It taught me that,inside good&bad is difficult to differentiate.
It taught me tolerance for many things.
It taught me only independence wont get myself into troubles.
Taught me many things,made my thinking totally change.
Im happy,that my thinking did change,im happy i did experience this though is horrible because i will be extremely becarful with the things,people im handling with :D

2010-08-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

Sana finally ended,sort of happy sort of sad.

Tiring day,woke up at around 6 plus and kept eating like non-stop.
Programme's buffet also eat eat eat D:
Today's 28th of august.And sana's finally ended.
A long way,a month.Went through many happy,also unhappy:D
But still im happy,because ..HAHA!
K,after sana went slack awhile with Derrick,Venessa,Weishen and his friend.
They are damn funny,Venessa was disturbed non-stop.
Haha,Afterwards Stupid LowPiggy sent me take cab home:D
And then,home sweet home.
Takecare k,Derricklowpiggggy!:D Still owe my starbucks ah!
See you soon :D
I will miss you guys,Definitely.The times,we have been through,Experienced:D

2010-08-28T09:53:00.000+08:00
Afraid.

Nothing last forever.Unsured about the feelings i had.
Bored at home,waiting for StephaniNgliting to be out.
Hopefully,it will be fast :D Bored at home,
Last session of sana programme,and yay!
Im set free from programmes :D

Afraid,because its already a phobia

2010-08-26T23:14:00.000+08:00

I really want to give up when i could now cause im unsure if everything is true.
Cause things may seems true when its not.And i dont wanna lose it all someday,for nothing last forever.The reason why these thoughts are on my mind,because i went through the same thing for so many times till' i really dont have the faith in love&trust anymore.Cause im afraid,and its already a phobia to me.Getting over a phobia in you for so long,its not easy and not many could do it.

CHANTZEHUI,IMISSYOU!
Im praying so hard that you could continue with your leftover sentence.Cause,i know you have been tolerating for a long time.And then when finally its gonna be over within just months,your mistakes makes your hopes corrupted.But its ok as long as your willing to change.Heaven knows whats' on your mind,and if you really did regret..Im sure,chances of letting you fulfill your wish will be given :D ChanTzeHui,im really sorry i dint do my best to stop you.Hope you really learnt your lessons,cause i want you to D: Guilty,not because i dint do it with you.But its because i dint suceed in stopping you..I will be praying and ofcause i will be waiting for you.

2010-08-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

It takes me a long time to know if its true,and i guess it is:D
Long ago picture,more than a year.
When my hair was long,And i miss my bloody long hair D:
Im left with 2 more weeks,out from that contradicting place!Yay!

People said,i really deafeated.Did i?

2010-08-10T12:10:00.000+08:00
10/8/2010

Like finally after two months of blog dead.I came posting again :D
Goodness,past few days didnt eat and drink anything at all cause whatever i eat and drink.
Ended up will be puked out D:
Woke up just now and drank a cup of coffee and milk plus forcing myself to eat bread D:
Not feeling very well still,think of how many times i vomitted on sunday,damn scary.
Six times of vomit,plus theres blood clot!~ D:
Like kena cancer like that.Scaryyyyy D:
Yay,tomorrow my iphone 's stock should be coming :D
I want to buy one portable charger( IPHONE POWERSTATION )
:D
Im left with 33 dayssss :D
Faster end manzx,shoubuliao this contradicting place already.
As the discharge date is nearing,the more slower days are pasting.
Birthdays' coming,yet dont know how should i celebrate D:
Any idea? :D
Tomorrow's my common test,and i didnt even study a single bit.
Bet i will sure fail.But i diedie,also will go to school tomorrow no matter how sick im,
no matter will i fail,i will still go to gain at least a few marks for my test :D

2010-06-07T20:03:00.000+08:00

Bugis with sisters to celebrate bobo's birthday.Tomorrow's Feliciatham's happiest day,Shes' gonna be free tomorrow,and im really happy for her.Sis,wait for me yeah.Im gonna discharge,this september and free next september.Hopefully's gonna be fast yeah.
Going back tomorrow,after 1 week of 'Home-L';'Holiday'?Lmao.
Anyway,lazy to upload other photos.
Waiting for the nine oclock show.Last second episode already,tomorrow's the last.
Borrreedddd.Awaiting for a little bit of freedom,Sep 14'2010.& Total freedom after a long run of 2 years being controlled,Sep 14'2011,Hopefully its gonna be fast:D

2010-05-31T08:37:00.000+08:00
This week's.Saturday

Came out on thursday,going back later.6pm,this weeks HL's like all the way was slacking with huimin!Haha,but think yesterday was the most fun want.Starting was bored,but after eating.We have our energy,and we did alot of rubbish!First time during this week,finally see huimin's real happy face(:Hopefully she could just stay as cheerful like yesterday:)Anyway,saturday woke up so early to fetch steffi.In the end she's the second last to reach.And,she really was a dumbo trying to act as if she's a pro!Haha,and then talk about stephanie.ng,there's 2 words for her.She is trying to make herself appear strong when she's not.Though meeting them,was not very fun but i just notice alot of things bout them.Got to really spend time with them to understand these 3 person!Of cause,Della leiting & Patricia did met us too.But on saturday,only for awhile then
they went zoo(:

Look at me and pat during new year.Hello,people.Say hi to me,before being second round of mushroom,after the first mushroom grow!(:

2010-05-30T22:51:00.001+08:00

Also part of last week's pic.Just that,didnt upload(:
After phone's charge finish,im going to upload this week's pic,& guess it wouldnt be alot:)

2010-05-22T23:17:00.000+08:00
21/5/2010.Saturday.Bugis

So many people i get to meet this week!Haha,Met yinghui&shunyee too!Im happy,So gonna meet them next week if steffi gets to come out!:)Haha,and than seperated with delphia and co.Went to meet baby and co.And then after that again back to delphia,ahpui,della,leiting and bagay.Awhile afterthat,Delphia went to church.Della,Leiting both went town.And i stayed at bugis with ahpui and bagay(with one girl which i dont know is who!(:)Back with baby and co. after that.Jovin was there by than,finally get to see her(:Around 8 plus,met Marilyn&Karen.This too idiots made me wait for like almost half a hour?!0.0 Awhile later,back home(:Should be meeting that two idiots in the morning for breakfast!:}This week's quite a nice week,many people i met!Quite satisfied&glad{:Tomorrow mum wont be at home,):'But nevermind,next week we can still see each other,hopefully we can have meals together again!Love you guys much,dearest cutest Mum,Sis&Dad!

14/5/2010.Saturday.Last week.

Sorry for not posting last week's stuffs in last week's post.As im short of time,kinda busy(:Saturday went for prawning,haha!Was feeding mosquitoes there.Lmao!Stupid della and me couldnt get nice photos that day.Dont know whats wrong,but its alright.Afterall,quite alright anyway!Was with leiting and her friends together with della.And than sunday,went sunplaza with sis and mum.Dad drove us there,waiting for mum at sunplaza with sis.While waiting,was shopping around,sis brought me one nice top(:Thanks dearest sis!After that,mum came after meeting her client.Went to pastamania for lunch.Back to bedok,fell at mrt platform.Have lil arguements with mum&sis as i misunderstood them for making fun of me falling.Ofcause,after that i apologised and they accepted.Mum asked me to change my temper more,yes mum im trying my very best k!Still,thanks for always understanding my tempers and giving in to me as much as you guys can.Thanks,love you guys always most!

2010-05-08T00:25:00.000+08:00
LASTWEEK-ILUMA & PREVIOUSWEEK-BUGIS.

Finally,my internet in my lappy could serve the net for once.Gosh!Happy.This week's first Friday.
Left with 4 more months.Finally,Hopefully everything could end smoothly and time could really fly!
Mother's day is comming in another like 24 hours?(:
Celebrating with mum later in the day!Hooray,Waiting for this day like quite long & So im like quite excited!
Wanna spend more time with my dearest mum later :D.
Super thirsty right now,dont know why because i have been drinking loads of water but still im feeling superduper thirsty,the feeling's like 0ver 100 years!
Worst of all,think im going to bath for the third time?Feeling super heaty when my fan's like already switched on to the max,And normally when it is already at its max,it will be quite cooling.Today's so heatyD:',People got to drink more water preventing yourself from getting sick alright!:D.
Bored and Rotting at home right now,cant get to sleep.Tired,but cant sleep.D:'Or maybe can say too excited till i cant close my eyes?Lmao!Im thirsty!Im jealous!Jealous,Because my sister has gotten her ITouch!Which is what i wanted like for quite a long time?!Nevermind,IPads' Out!And i want it!But for now,i still couldnt work.Under some kind of control,so yeah.Im gonna get it no matter its now or maybe later?!(:

2010-04-25T00:25:00.000+08:00

Headed to bugis after giving some morning calls to this stupid pig,Felicia tham!
And then went eating at 269 as Sis didnt take her breakfast,
Ate and went to buy some yoghurt and apple as my snack.Bought movie tickets for 'Date Night'.
Quite a funny show is all i can say,As it made me laugh so loudly!Lol.After movie,Headed to fushion to meet some other people.Fiona,Joy,Devil and co. was there.Stayed at bugis till like,8.
And then went back to hometown yo!{:Shopped with sis,went home after that to change and then went down find my dearest lovely mummy!
Went with her to Ntuc and then back home.Thats all about it for today!(:A normal(fun/bored) day.

And yayyyy,i finally could be able to connect to internet.And i'll be back to my show on tudou(:

2010-04-17T22:48:00.001+08:00
'Bout Me-PlazaSing.

See my sucky mushroom head.Goodness,cant believe i can go down to ps in this way-.-
Went long john for potato salad,And some Yami yoghurt with cranberries!Yummi.
Leiting's trying to make to lose face when she knows that there's no place for me to throw my yoghurt cup.But she's still that stupid irratating yet entertaining NgLeiting!(:
Tzehui,Me&Leiting were like 3 peaceful souls around PlazaSing this week.Actually did meet my dear Marilyn,But she left like at around 7plus!As she's leaving for her work(:
Back home ,Pizza.Yoghurt.Fruits!

Yeah,its already past.KoSipei,
Even if you cant,Even if theres' really something you want to explain,
Forget,Because its already the past.And you should know,
Its only you yourself,brooding about the past.Nobody else.
Things always takes two hands to clap.You've got nobody to blame,but yourself.
What if nobody listen?Blame it to yourself than(:
So since its the past,why not let it be the past even if there's something you wish to speak up for?Rainbows will always only appear after some heavy rain(:
AND,Hopefully out already you should know how to keep yourself out of troubles alr.
So do takecare yeah!(:

'Bout dearest,Limserli.Sis,no matter what sentence it would be.I know,i'll still be waiting.Physically i cant be there,but mentally..I know i'll.Chances was always given when you made mistakes,but you chose yourself not to appreciate,So Sis be brave just like how you made your decision to repeat your mistake.Everything we do,will surely have consequences we need to bare.I know,you'll have that courage,Im supporting you right in my mind.Sis,one advice im giving to you.Sometimes,even if its for somebody you loved alot,you shouldnt react just for them even before thinking for yourself.After you go,i've really somehow learnt that think of ourself before doing anything,because our life is our choice&Same thing,Choices we made affect us,Not anybody.

2010-04-17T22:48:00.000+08:00
Out & back to a stupid mushroom):
Damn it!!-.-
Shall post photos later(:

2010-02-27T22:33:00.000+08:00

Thinking of the consequences after all these actions, No one i could blame,but myself.
Im sorry,not only to the people that get into troubles cause of this. But also to myself,didnt think of that consequence. And all the rush actions,after all these things that happened,
Or could even had happen even after i have all this punishments, Learning more,think before we act. The way we act,proves everything.Should have listen to so many people's advice,
Just because i did,i landed myself in this state.Hopefully,nothing will happen..

2010-02-23T09:01:00.000+08:00
DAMN IT.Get caught for taking pictures in that place-.-
After 7 weeks later if im coming out,im going to private my blog.
Stupidstupidstupid!One picture only -.-

2010-02-22T13:23:00.000+08:00
Im not feeling happy,not now.Not till,all these are over.

Wondering,what could be happening to me.Knowing very clearly myself,its not the first time.And im still redoing it.Cannot expect for chances,because its caused by myself.
Yet,why isiit that i cant give up on praying everyday that nothing will happen?
Whats exactly wrong with me,i wanted to be brave,Didnt I?
I want a me that i can face any consequences,taking any responsibility for what i've done.
Yet,in the end i still failed.No matter how much i've tried,ending up..Im still showing that weak side of me..
Praying,for the best to come.And hoping for it to be over as soon as possible..With that good result i wanted.Im really sorry for what i did,yet its too late to regret.
Im not angry with anybody when im showing tamtrums..Yet,its with myself..Because, i know its my fault,for everything.Not in a mood for anything..
Today's the 21st of feb.And in less than 10 days time you will be out,if you can ever see this.I just want to tell you,even if you hate me alot,i still hope you will allow me to wait for you as a friend.Though maybe the misunderstandings,i cant clarify with you and would have to leave it this way,still hope at least there's still friendship in between.Takecare.
Court review's coming,hoping that i will have another chance for my fresh case..After tomorrow,if still i could continue my 6 months,7 weeks i wouldnt be out.Hoping for the best,praying everything could end.Added 2 more weeks get cut,Stupid pictures in stupid place get caught-.-

2010-02-20T22:40:00.000+08:00
Trying to treasure all these remaining happy time,not to think of the worst.

I dont know how long more all these days could last.
Again i have made one more mistake.Im just hoping,this would be that last time.And i'll have the last chance just like expected.
Even if i dont,i'll miss all these days.And definitely,i'll.
Today was a tiring day running everywhere,after this week.I dont know if theres anymore chance for me to enjoy all these.Hoping,and praying for the best that i could.
Really,i wish to ):
Know something,suddenly i feel that if i have to leave,i'll just miss you guys.
Hoping,praying for the best.I hope that,i'll be forgiven,really forgiven.
And to be given that final chance,to continue having this fun for another 6 months..

2010-02-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hello people!Finally,i've got this time to update my dead blog yeah,LOL.
Its newyear,happy newyear everyone :D
And then after this newyear,probably i wouldnt have anymore time updating my blog for hmm around 5 weeks plus?Anyway,its nothing link to what i did today.(:
Sooooo..Early in the morning,met with Jiaer,Della,Patricia,Leiting.That stupid LuZiFa was there too!Lol,kay.Camped at bugis till shops opened,and than shopped for awhile.Aftermath,went to Novena.And guess what!If you look properly at the above pictures.2 of the pictures shows that,All of us bought cotton on stuffs.And imagine us bringing the exactly same plastic bag walking around VeloCity.And not only that,we went to Orchard after that too.Think,we should really form a cotton on gang :D
Kay,shooped till my leg almost break into pieces and than went home for dinner.But its not reunion dinner,Reunion dinner will be on Monday i guess? :D
Tomorrow Mum&Dad going Malaysia.Gonna miss them till evening(:

In less than a month,you're going to be out.
Although,i think you must be disliking me alot now.
But still to tell you,if you ever get to see this.
I might not have the chance to clarify with you,because i guess it maybe is useless.
But,to let you know.Even if you will be seeing me in a different way,even if you must be disliking me alot,Im still waiting for you,as a friend status?Maybe you might not want to even befriend me.But,i'll still be waiting for you because i still will want you as a friend :D
Takecare yeah,:D

Its precious birthday :D

2010-01-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

3 years,Still counting.Nobody can ever replace a friend like you.Just like my kin,my real blood.Like part of my family.One of the most important person,and its not just words.Not just words can describe how much understandings we have through all this 3 years we have went through.And,i want you to know even if the whole world may dislike how you are now..I will not,because i know your inside is not how you exactly appear to be,Precious.You dont have to change just because of anybody wants you to.You are,you.Those who truely understands,will not hate you because of how you behave,Instead they are going to support you through what you are going to go through.And im going to be one of them,your sister and your mum loves you many too,and they are going be there with you through it all.Your mother did all these not because she dont understand,perhaps its because she knows alot and she dont want you to step to the wrong path.You already are in the past,and i think maybe she really cares and dont want you to be like last time,thats why she force you to go back school.But think,if you dont go through all these.Next time when you grow up,how can you go through even worst things,Right?So somehow,she's helping you now too.Sometimes,because of how you think affects how you act and also affect how you react towards people and yourself.But understand anot,i tell you all these is not because i want you to make me one of your most important want,but i want you to know.You do have significance in my heart,and its one that cant be seen by anybody but only i know it myself :D,Because,you are far too important to me.Like my flesh,that i cant live without.

Bedok-Novena-Fareast-Bugis and then home.
Had so much of food today k!Met leiting and precious.And than patricia too,well tiring day.I really love me mum,know why?She bought me a new phone! <3

2010-01-03T10:20:00.000+08:00

Going back , in less than 10 hours time.
Sometimes,it just isnt words could describe how i feel. In times,i really feel like backing off.Really, But whenever i think of those who cares.. If i really back off at this time,i will just lose myself out.

Sometimes,i just dont understand what i want.&What am i exactly thinking about,in times when im thinking of something. I dont even know why am i thinking of all that. Having a mixed up mind,D:'I know,i know im not appreciating what im having now. And i also dont understand why must i only regret after i've lost. Many people ask me to stop what's bad for me,but i still dont want to listen. Those who truely cares,and loves me always get hurt by me.And when i get hurt by the one i really loved,i always blame on them but never think of what i always do,because i hurt people who love and care for me too.I will only know how they feel,when im in the same situation as them.I just need time,but so much time i have wasted.And still im asking for more..Why humans will just never be satisfied?D:" When we finally feel how people feel,than we will start to think of them.Humans are kinda selfish at times too.Not emphasizing on anybody,but this is just how i feel after experiencing so many things.So much for what i went through,and i still dont learn anything?Then isnt all this hard works all wasted..Forget bout it,just got to really start to make a big change now perhaps..How people think of me,i often care much.But thats not easy to control too.I dont want to care sometimes,but the effects that might have on me makes me go round and round thinking bout it.D:'Maybe,its really my fault.I only care how i felt in the past,but never think how you may feel.One last word,sorry love.Thinking back,i realised how selfish im.Saying sorry not because i admit to what you heard,but because i feel im just too selfish only thinking about myself in the past when your still there,and even when your already inside.Next time,i promise myself..Im not going to be so selfish to any of the ones that i love anymore,because i may not know when im going to lose them..Its already another new year,and im still stucked in the past.That beautiful,happy,sad moments of the previous year.2009,one blink of eye another year came.Hoping that this year,everything will go smoothly for me than.

2010-01-02T21:58:00.000+08:00
Bedok-Bugis-Back home

Met up with sisters,gonna be the last day free for you guys yeah.Seriously,i feel like breaking away from all these.LimSerli,things that's gonna happen i'm willing to go through with you.No matter what,i will be there just for you.Im not going to leave you alone,no way.
Sometimes,i just feel im useless cause' i just dont know how to appreciate how much people love and care for me.
I really dont feel like going back,Goodness.Find ways,let me break away from everything.Please D: How i wish,i have a doraemon who can bring me to other place instead of this fucking place.Get me out of this miseries.

Contented to have them with me :D

2010-01-02T10:18:00.000+08:00
2nd January-Going back in 24 hrs time.

Yay!Sister came back from new york :D
And guess what!She bought me a kate spade wallet,
Which i dint really expected her to! :D
Im so lucky to have a sister like her!And of cause my mum have a share in this wallet too :D
Suddenly,i felt so fortunate to have parents and siblings like them.So contented to have them here by my side.Whenever,im sad they dont fail to be there too.
Whenever i get into troubles,they are the ones there supporting me through.
And when i want something,they always try their best to get for me.And dont worry,i really appreciate and i do know how much you guys dote and love me.And ofcause,i love you guys much too!All these times when i get into troubles,when i reached my super helpless state.You all never fail to be there to give me the right advices,Seriously nobody can replace my great family in my heart.I love you guys super many!The love that can never be described :D

And for breakfast,i ate 2 slice of peanut butter bread&2 youtiaos with one cup of milo and one serving of fruits! D:'How much i will really gain for goodness sake! D:'

Love,i do still miss you but i dont know why.
And whats the use,when you already made a conclusion about me just cause of what you've heard which is a total different thing from what really did happened.And you chose to beliving it than me.I really dont know whats the point of me still cant bare to let you off.Maybe is just that,im not strong enough to bring myself the courage,to let you go.Letting go,isnt that easy and its not in seconds i can do it.Even if,how much you might hate me.I still want to tell you,thanks for letting me know you because through all these miserable periods,you made me learn alot.Even if,i've lost many things but i've really learnt many things with the experiences.From last year december,i knew you till now.Many things happened in between which made me learn.This time round,its really the goodbye.Takecare,Love.

This year's new year,gonna spend inside D:'
LimSerli,Bad things dont come then when will it go?:D

2010-01-01T22:18:00.000+08:00
Bedok-Bugis-Home.
Met sister,And like finally after a week i met her again :D
Going back like in one days time?!So fast uh,super fast times flys indeed.
LOL!Morning,I had biscuits and bread for breakfast.
Lunch i had my fish soup shared with mum.
Dinner,came back home to have my chicken soup plus some veget.
And then some snacks.
Gonna gain real lotsa weight!D:'
Until when than can i really slim down? O.O
OHHHH,tomorrow maybe meeting sis again!
I love you <3

Take all that broken dreams with you,goodbye love.

2010-01-01T10:25:00.000+08:00
Count down was spent at home sleeping D:'
Goodness,cannot take it.
How can i sleep and eat so much 1/day?D:'
Gotto really diet already.

2009-12-31T16:37:00.000+08:00
Bedok-Parsiris-Back home

Well,tiring day.Unlucky day too,whatsoever!
Met precious!Headed to parsiris,was not fun at all.
Had my breakfast than went out,and then went whitesands foodcourt to have my lunch
:D,So full after having a big bowl of noodles.Goodness,fullest to the max alright!
Boring to the max though.Precious,faster online D:'

IvanLiew,
suddenly i really miss the times alot.
Weather,its at yishun or at anywhere where we had our fun times together.
Well,things have really changed alot,and i hope that time will fly.
I really do miss you alot,maybe things will get better?
I hope,and i guess so.
When then can we meet and have our fun times again? D:'
After 25th,i dint even get a chance to talk to you anymore.
I've got so much things to tell you D:'
Faster come out! D:

I feel,i should really get you out of my mind.
Because a guy who thinks the same like how people thinks of me,
Aint worth my tears,and my love.
Fuck you,love.
If i had one wish,we would be best friends and that love might never end.

2009-12-29T21:24:00.000+08:00
Kay,Diet plan failed D:'
Yesterday,had so much of food for my stomach D:'
And then again,morning today i ate bread.
Afternoon,fruits.
Night,ate porridge with vegetables and some eggs,fish.
And then had ice cream & chocolates for desert.
Goodness,until when then can suceed in my plan?O.O

2009-12-28T15:12:00.000+08:00
Home-ed for like 3 days?!

Cam-ed with webcam.Goodness,How short is my hair?!0.0

2009-12-27T23:40:00.000+08:00
27th/December Night

Yeah,its the collogen plumping and softening mask!And there goes my creepy face(:
Stayed at home for another day.Was alone for the damn whole day though.And then was like staring at the com for more than 12 hours already?Guess my eyesight might get worst!Around 7 plus in the evening,went to Aunty Enuice house(Mum's friend).And was like even more bored than staying at home,As all of them was playing majong.Mum got no time to entertain her daughter that is dying of boredom,me at all):'They ordered some western grilled pork ribs,chicken wings and more,offered me some but didn't eat as I really got no appetite at all.Goodness,i have already got an empty stomach for two days due to my loss of appetite.Tomorrow's orchard trip with mum is postponed to Wednesday,so might be staying at home for tomorrow or going out only if i feels like and not feeling tired.
And to some freak,look properly if your viewing my blog now!
Well,let me tell you if you think you have succeded,So sorry to disappoint you,I really got the ability to be alone,and of cause i wouldnt let these kind of rubbish bother me.Now i knew whats happening,really makes me despite you.So what if people especially him who have heard this and dont bother clarifying with me?!I dont give a damn,because i know although i am not totally not at fault,but at least i know the things you've heard & said is just so much more different than what exactly happened.And so,nothing about these is going to bother me at all.I've my dignity,you loser.

2009-12-27T10:47:00.000+08:00
I've got the ability to move on,
even with those bad thoughts you and anybody might had for me.
All because of the fake rumors.

27/dec
Just woke up from my 10 hours sleep.
Goodness,the day before yesterday i dint even get a wink of sleep,
And surprisingly,i can keep my eyes open till yesterday 12plus in the night.
Then,Finally i get to rest my poor tiring eyes):'
Well,yesterday spent my day at home with mum&dad.
Sis is still over there at america,Enjoying herself.
Poor me,cant even go overseas due to some damn reasons.

I really need a break,To rest my empty soul.
Whatever people's gonna listen,
Wheather they choose to believe,
And how they gonna think of me.
Im not going to fugging care,because i know.
Its fake,although i really did something wrong but not with that story.

STAY STRONG,
Because,they done that just wanting to see you down.
So the more,you should prove to them.
By doing that,they will just get nothing they wanted.

2009-12-26T18:44:00.000+08:00
SO THATS THE REASON WHY.

Haha,dont you think its ridiculous?
Yes,i admit i did something which i shouldnt.
But the one,i alone one girl with..
Its too ridiculous kay.
You dont even bother clarifying,and just merely hear how people says.
WhatSoEver,
Maybe yes,i indeed done something which you would hate me to.
But,The most ridiculous thing is.
How can it be i alone one girl?
So trying to pull me down by saying all these?!
Haha,People who said all these rubbish,
You know who you are,kay.
Dont act smart,when your not.
Are your even there at that point of time?!
So sorry,your are not.
Whats makes you guys thinks that im alone?!
Saying this,trying to make people think bad bout me?
Let me tell you,even if everybody will think the same way as you.
I know the best myself,What your said are all nonsense.
I will just stand at my own rights,
Because,letting all these nonsense bother me wont benefit in anyway.

Makes no sense at all.
And so,to you hearing proofs more than witnessing with your own eyes?!
HAHA!

2009-12-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

Home-Bugis-Home

Bugis,met up with baby sis and co.
Finally,after so long i get to see her.
Was a happy day,cause i have cleared stuffs with sis.
No matter what happen,it can never be tear yeah.
No worries,i still love you that much.
5 more months,sis you will be free.
Soon alright,So gotto follow rules alright!
Behave,and its gonna be over.
You will be free(:

2009-12-25T01:12:00.000+08:00
Bedok-Amk-Home-Airport-Home

From home,went to amk to meet up with precious.
Went macs,as shes' having her lunch.
Aftermath,went to her daddy's house.
Around 6.30 left there,precious sent me to busstop.
Back home at 8,took my sumptious dinner.
Guess i had what for dinner!
Salmon fish,Bean curd,Vegets&2 bowls of soup.
Goodness,how heavy dinner i had.
Remind yourself KoSipei,
You want to lose weight,not to gain weight!):'

Kay,around 9 left home.
Send sist to airport for her america trip.
Went food court,as sist's friends' relative want some food.
They even ordered one plate of carrot cake,
one plate of fried oyster with egg.
Mum still ask me to have some,but im really too full to eat anymore!
And then,around 10.50 sister left.
Cabbed back home.
KoSipei,Determination to stop eating!
You gotto lose some weight,Understand?!
GRRRH.

2009-12-23T09:49:00.001+08:00

You have already,
Past by me,in my life.

Empty heart,You went past me.
The promises we once wanted to do together,
It can never be fulfilled.
Just to tell you,im glad i knew you.

Fuck whats on my mind up!

Just hope,you will takecare.

Bonvayage.

2009-12-22T21:52:00.000+08:00
HougangPoint-Home.

Well,had 2 buns & a cup of coffee for breakfast.
2 spoons of noodles for lunch.
Horfun,for dinner.
My stomach is like,feeling so damn full right now.

Tomorrow,going back gh for ducktour.
Gonna see precious,gotto confirm weather she will be having break.

I dont even know,the reason behind.
The fake promises you made,was so true to me.
I took so much of courage to trust,and you ruined everything.
Regretted,for trying so hard just for you.
Perhaps,i dint gave my best.
Is this the thing,you wanted?

2009-12-21T20:09:00.000+08:00
Kovan-Hougang-Back to home.Sister's going to america soon.
Her red winter coats' cute!Haha.
Guess if i wear it in singapore,
i might be in the hospital for heat stroke!
Well,had bird nest for both breakfast and dinner.
Tomorrow,going to mcys for some cycologist talk.
LOL!Then afterthat,school conference 2nd round.
Wednesday,back to gh for ducktour&laser!
Thursday,lovely sis gonna fly to america(:

You ruined the courage,i tried to brought up hard.
Once,it happened.
It ended.

2009-12-20T23:16:00.000+08:00
Well,today had my breakfast.
Some tanyuan,a bun.
And then had,rice and yam cake for dinner.
My stomach is bursting now.
Gosh,i gotto control man!
Guess my target of sliming down,is hard to hit!

Back in those days,when you were still there.
Im happier.
I want that smiles,when i'm with you.
Perhaps,i didnt give the best of me in the past.
Though not sure what happened,and what you exactly thought of me.
I want you to know,im happy because i knew you.
And theres' memories once.
Trying to tell myself,smile because it once happened.
Not crying because it ended.
Do takecare,love.

2009-12-19T22:08:00.000+08:00
Hougang-Centerpoint-Js-Back home.

Photos taken,many more to be uploaded.
But,my usb is spoiled.So only manage to get all these.
Well,a tiring day.Woke up early in the morning 6plus.
And then headed to meet Della,Venessa,Huimin.
Waited for Patricia to come.
Kay,then headed to centerpoint for venessa's sake!
Pouring heavily everywhere,got wet everywhere we went.
Well,was a nice day with them.
Especially with Della,Venessa&Patricia at Js.
Was singing and dancing away inside.
Saw Francita and co. at there too!
A tiring,but fun day.
Loads of fun with them today.
Awaiting for precious to be out for her break on christmas.

Mentally,Emotionally weak.
How long more could i stay strong alone.
Well,one step at a time.

2009-12-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

Decades ago.

Around like 8 months back?When,i still had my freedom.
But i dint appreciate it,blame myself for not treasuring it.
Facing the contradicting reality,i've got nothing i can do.
Accept it,and go through it.
Tell myself,soon its gonna be over.

Sometimes,some obstacles are meant to be there for us to experience.& We will learn.

Just like this few months of being alone,i have been used to it.
The things taught me,alone is nothing bad.Instead,i have learnt independency.

Appearing nice doesnt meant they really are.

2009-12-13T16:42:00.000+08:00
Going back to gh,in half a hour time.
Anyway,im getting fatter each day.
Hell me!Goodness,i have been eating so much.
Soooooo much,
Breakfast,3 piece of sponge cake.
Lunch,cucumber&fruits.
Fat die you,KoSipei!!

2009-12-13T00:17:00.000+08:00
Hougang-Kovan-Chinatown-Hougang-CentrePoint.

Woke up in the morning,6.45.
Gave venessa her morning call,surprisingly she woke up with just one call.
LOL,and then headed to meet her at around 9 plus at hougang.
And then do whatever we always use to do,and then to kovan met Patricia.
With her daddy,we went chinatown.
And then back to hougang,met della&huimin Co.
Kay,and then ate alot this week again.
Have my papaya milkshake,many fruits.
And then,late in the night went centre point meet mum&dad.
Have my starbucks chocolate fuccapino frape.
Its creamy choclate-ryyyy.
Delicious,Yummmy.
Who cares if im gonna get fat now?!Because,its too delicious.
And then yeap,after that wedding dinner back home with mum.
A tiring day.Super!
Travel from one to the other part of Singapore.
Walked,squeezed so many places.
But really had fun!(:

A contradicting past,
Never will that love be back.
Whatever it is,Takecare love.
I wouldnt sob because it ended,
Instead,i will be happy it once happened.
BonVayage,that past&you.

2009-12-12T00:53:00.000+08:00
Goodness,i hate everything.

Sis,i promise.
Give me time.

Seriously,im in a circumstances.
A horrible contradicting want,which im very unhappy to be in.

2009-12-07T09:00:00.000+08:00
Aljunied->Hougang->Bugis->Home
Met venessa at aljunied,and then cabbed over to hougang.
There we met,huimin and co.
Went to mac for lunch,i dint have any because im now 50.
Lol.
Aftermath,Bugis.
It was super squeezy luh,like nobody business kay.
And then after that,home sweet home.(:
I wasnt feeling really that good,
Not as how i appear to be,thats it.

2009-12-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

Contradicting love,
Seems like it just happened yesterday.
Its december,last year december's when i knew you first.
Everything seems to be passing fast,everything seems to be just illustrations.

Could anybody explain why?
Everything seems to be untrue when its real.
Im actually the biggest fool,
to have trusted the biggest liar.
You.

I gain nothing trying my luck,
I gain nothing to try so hard having courage,
I gain nothing to even be that confident.
I just appear to be that biggest fool to anybody,
Even to idiots,im just a fool.

Once,your the person i can really rely and trust.
You appeared to be sucha trustable person,
But,you really fooled me with all that sweet lyings;actings.
You wont ever understand how stupid i felt of myself,
Just because of you and what you've decided to do.

2009-11-29T08:58:00.000+08:00

Sunday afternoon,home.
just had a sumptious breakfast,
and then followed by a huge delicious lunch.

Saturday,aftertoon/night.
TOWN-CHOMPCHOMP
Peishan,sipei,leiting&tzehui.
Leiting&Me.Patricia&me.Peishan,me.

LOL,
Met patricia,peishan at bedok area.
Cabb-ed to town,met angeline.
Aftermath,Chompchomp(:

Im starting to change,
because im in certain circumstances right now.
Faking,is like my job.

2009-11-28T01:09:00.000+08:00
What you've left me with,is the darkest route within.
I've said that,not because its really that bad.
But maybe its just something,i've to go through,
So that i'll learn something instead.
Afterall,thanks for everything.
Although,its not gonna be the same anymore.But im glad,that i've knew you.
Thanks(:
I knew,i tried very hard to trust you once.
And i did,after so much of courage.Yet,beliving you still did disappoint me afterall.
I chosed to trust you after that,its because i think i should.
But,you proved me wrong.Not saying its your fault ofcause.

Because,i still thank you alot.
For making me face the reality.
Because,thats life.
& thats what i have to face and go through..

Making me learn how to be real independent for 9 months.
Alone for that whole 9 months.
And now,i know i can go through all these sadness easily alone,
Handling it well,because for that 9 months...
I went through something even tougher than that,
&i've overcalm it.And now,i know i can let go just as you wished too..

Yeah,homeleave from fri-sun.And then back to that same place again.
LOL!Maybe going to reborn my stupid hair tomorrow,or sunday(:

-To find true wants,is like digging for gold.

And seriously,i feel nobody is ever true.
Just nobody could make me trust them anymore.
What i went through,its enough for me to know,
Who could really be there,and who couldnt.
Not just talking bout trust,but the want that really cares.
Sometimes,i've been thinking.
Why?Why isiit that nobody is there.
But after everything,i wont even think of that.
'Cause,there's not even a why for that question.

&Independency,is that word.
Rather being alone then staying fake all the time.
sometimes,loneliness is not that bad too.

21/nov.

2009-11-21T23:07:00.001+08:00
Met della & venessa and their lovers!
LOL,was a light bulb there anyway!
This two idiots!LOL.
Anyway,waiting for curfew call..
So tired,Yawns!
Just finished a long talk with wilsonchen with full of rubbish!
Tireds!
And how perfect,mum and grandma overseas,
dad having wedding dinner.
And im at home with my sis?0.0

Darkness does not always equates to evil,
Just like,light does not always bring good..
Just like human's hearts.

Counting,one more week.
Bel,imissyou

Brokedup.
After all,thanks for all these.
Been like a fool,and maybe i've just been irratating your life all along.
Still,thanks.
Although its all over.

2009-10-18T12:48:00.000+08:00

Heyyo Everybody!(:
Im currently fine,will be contacting people if i have that time already.

(:
Anyway,this' my new blog.
Wont be linking for the current moment,
And wont be posting for the moment too.